A letter from February 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, The day before yesterday it was seulgi's birthday (from red velvet), and like it was weird cuz these days i knew it was coming tho i didn't know the exact date and like i was 'i should be careful i don't wanna miss it' and stuff and on the 10th i checked when it was and so that it was that day and i was like, okay, so what now? Like i was focused on not missing it that i didn't think waht i would do when it came. Like, I don't have one of those super devoted fanpages on any social platform, so my only option was to idk write on the sm app like all the other thousands of fans. But i didn't. Don't get me wrong, i don't sufer (suffer?) from not like other girls/fans sindrome. I just forgot :/ Also it felt weird to write. I have never written to the members on the app. I guess eventhi I get the concept of the app (obviously) it feels weird to write to people who live on the other side of the world to whom I look up to, and who don't know I exist. Like I love them more than a lot of things in my life, but they don't know who I am and a part of me wants to stivk to my ideal one-sided love, if that makes sense. Did I give u something to think about? Or remind you of an embarrassing time in your life :) I hope you're well You