A letter from February 11th, 2021

Hi FutureMe 2025, This is your self 2021. Drinking beer, watching fight for my way. Feeling a little bit numb and thinking of drinking 4 more cans to make up 6 cans to kuya joey. Jen was asleep. These moments remind you of those empty Pidac kalsada's after drinking with your friends, while Ikit, your good friend was overlooking you, hanggang umakyat ka ng bahay nyo. Those inumans with gitara and PNY. Those Midsummer Night's Dream practice, na uso pa yung nangunguhang van. Those nights with Michelle, Pj, Lyzel and Arianne infront of SLRDMP after taize prayers. Those drunken nights in Lucban with your boardmates. Those Mcdonalds with BN 💕 You are looking at the pool and thinking, ****, I am happy! Im happy just to be with myself. Im happy alone. But im also happy being with those people. Would you still think the same up to now? I hope you do. Today is CNY 2021. And pepsi's birthday 😊 are you still friend with her? I hope you are. She's a good soul. She's for keep. For life. No matter how whiny she is, she's really kind and has a pure heart. So keep her around. Be a good friend. Get her to be a Godparent of your child. I hope she's the kind of a long-life friend. I love you La. By the time you finish this email, you probably will have another beer and go for toilet break. If your stomach will permit, you'll probably have instant chapjae 😂 But from what I've been feeling from the past days, you are happy. It was hard, but you are happy. And you are willing to move out of your comfort zone. Love, Lala, Feb2021