A letter from February 10th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Let me not make this all chessy but this year has been by far one of the most successful years that I have had and one of the hardest years I had to go through. As of today, I am doing my final sem at IIT Madras from home at Chennai online due to the pandemic and have an offer from Dalberg Global Advisors to join them as analyst. Last year was a roller coaster starting with Siemens and publishing a paper and patent there, lowkey a scam pulled by Sudev sir, but did finish it up. At the same time I had to put myself out there to the total university that I have been a failure due to the U grade in RKKs course. I applied for AAS at IITM and due to confusions I was asked to apply and later publicly removed from the nominations. It was difficult to take it in, but had to put up with it. India and the world is still reeling under the pandemic. It is much better now in Feb 2021. We are able to go out and all that, but still not all borders are open and Arun is doing his college from here. Final sem is filled with anxiety. I am doing more courses than I am supposed to be doing to complete my graduation. And to do that I have dropped my project, which is being done through the years, but we never know with IITM. They might bring in new rules just to screw me up. I am still reeling with motivation, lacking discipline and struggling with procrastination. I am also nervous of joining Dalberg with all these habits. It is supposed to be helpful, but I don’t want to be looking weak there. Hopefully I graduate on time and don’t struggle with Dalberg. Also searching for a home at Mumbai and they seem like they are hell a lot expensive. Don’t have any gf’s and don’t know even if I need to have one. Vaishnavee is trying to patch up but I don’t want that relationship. Hard to explain on text. Want an MBA but not sure about the next 4 years myself. Let’s see how it goes. My feeling now is worry and anxious, to pass in FEM, not to get extension at IITM and also to be well prepared before Dalberg. Hopefully I’ll be fine. When you read this 5 years from now, I don’t expect jack **** from you, since I am super confused with life philosophies and all that, but hopefully you have something that will keep you going for a long time and also that you have above average money in your bank account (maybe like some 50-60 lakhs to fund your MBA?) That is it from a worrying online final year student from IITM, college has been a big struggle for me. Need to relax. Have a happy life and do something different, like taking a sabbatical and all that. And also hope that you staying healthy. I am 85 as of now, but working on it to move to the 70s. Good luck for your future from your 23 year you. Love :) PS: Dont worry if your are too stressed, things hopefully will be alright.