A letter from February 5th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, You've probably forgotten all about this by now and right now this is so boring but this is a letter written by you or me or us- this is weird- on February 5th 2021. I'm sitting right now at home at my desk writing a letter to myself in 5 years. Happy birthday!!!! Your 18 now and I hope that your happy cause what's the point in being sad. I don't know what your doing but you might have a twitch and YouTube channel cause that's what I currently aspire to have. Even if you don't just remember to keep trying to make yourself happy and do what you want to do. Don't let anyone tell you how to live your life cause I know already that so many people want me to do exactly what they want and that's not what I want. and bam I'm crying. If you want to live in America and write scripts for blockbuster films you do it cause you are amazing and this is now cheesy. I don't know about you but I know I can't stand the thought of living a life in the office so don't ever do that or I'll be very disappointed. Crying even more yay. But I worry for you every day because I hate the future the unknowing of it all. I think that you have so many valid points and I think that if you don't voice them it will all go to **** in this world. Your not a saint and probably can't save the world but David Attenborough and Greta Thunberg have done something actually everything and their just people and so are you. Always remember that anyone you aspire to or think are a saint are just people who put so much effort in who tried their very best for sometimes years. So you must always try your best because dream you know the guy with like 17.1 million subscribers who plays Minecraft with his friends well he worked so hard for a year to be able to afford to start his channel. I don't want to make you feel bad because remember be happy but I know that deep down you were meant for more so you go and get it what ever it is. You can help so many people to be so happy and help correct some of the incredibly wrong injustices in this world all you need is a voice and a platform. Congrats you've got both- unless you lost your voice in a terrible accident. Always remember that you are a woman and that is a title held by so many people but not understood by many. To be a woman you have to be strong and ready to fight prejudice and inequality. We all need a shoulder to cry on but you have to stay strong and be a light for so many people to stand strong. I know that lots of things frighten you cause I cry when I face the possibility of failing and I hope that you can move on from this and be the fearless person you where supposed to be. Just remember that I look to you for reassurance to see how I'll turn out and you can always scrap everything- education is overrated- and make a change to make you happier. I can't believe that in 5 days someone will be 6 years old. I know that he thinks the world of you and you think think the world of him. Never ever leave him behind even if you are on the other side of the world. I once saw a quote that said, 'school was like ridding a bike but the bike was on fire and the floor was on fire because it was hell,' you have to be the on who picks him up of the floor, gets him back on that god-*** bike and extinguish the flames for him. Even after he's gotten over the finish line you need to hold his hand as he walks the path of life and help guide him every step of the way and never let him feel alone. One day he will no longer need your help but let him know that you will always be there for him if he need a helping hand. On the topic of family I don't know how much you'll have left because ***** is a ***** and takes away the people you love the most. Just know the of coarse cry and grieve for them but ***** is inevitable one day maybe in 70 or 80 years you will see them again- I'm not religious but you never know what's true in this labyrinth of a world- you will meet more people and maybe the love of your life one day and they will fill the wholes in your heart. I'm not dead set on marriage and kids yet but even your friends can help mend those wholes so never ever let them go ok you got me. Don't ever leave them behind and you should never have to pick between family, friends and carer. I hope that you love yourself the way you are because you are the only you and you can't that. Keep you head up and never ever give in because that way you will always fail and if you keep trying you will come out on top in the end. lots of love (i guess) you 5 years ago