A letter from February 4th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I wish someone would tell me in pretty. I am aware that I'll be in a completely different headspace when I receive this. actually this isn't the normal me either, I was listening to lots of old-ish love songs and sad songs and the lyrics and the comments made me feel like...this. I'm sorry if it's cringey for u, I hope it isn't. that would make me sad I want someone to 'fight' for me, metaphorically of course. like they want me in their life so bad they're willing to do that. I have no idea what your life is like, and that scares me. I hope u don't curse me for not working hard enough...I'm sorry. nothing was stopping me but my mind. I get immobilised by fear, of the unknown and the future and the endless possibilities and failure.