A letter from February 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hii man.. Don't know how but i stumbled on this site once again and i was genuinely surprised to see my previous letters. 5years have passed and I'm still the same, Whi same dreams h, Whi same obstacles h, Whi same time frame h, Whi same stakes h, Whi same opportunities h, Whi same plan hai... Right now as i said I'm surprised that how i have spent 5 years of my life and still be on the same place exactly Like i can't believe even my way of thinking and assessing situation hasn't changed. Anyway let me bring you up-to-date #bihar board k bare m jo shak tha na tumara shi tha bilkul, i failed 😆😆 not once but twice #Next(2017) year as the new cycle began, i became more ambitious and made a more expensive bet on myself - i went to kota (spent almost ₹2.25lakh) and as you know lost😬 #Next(2018&2019) year i some how cleared my board exams nd bihar board se picha chuta i got 73k rank in jee nd got admitted in HIT. In haldia life is simple and private just as i would have wanted. I rented a studio appartment bcz i didn't wanted to adjust my lifestyle in hostel i enjoyed my first year in college (played pubg as much as i can). Sometimes used to cook dinner on my own (it was good "mostly"😉) I got my first laptop and High-end mobile in 2019 (laptop- ₹42000, Mobile- ₹23000) #Next (2020) Just one word "coronavirus" 😆😆 Spent 10month in home expecting things will go back to normal and did absolutely nothing Used to do immamat in home with whole family (mostly zabardasti but sometimes it felt good) Had really long hair 😂😂 looked cool but care nhi ho pata tha nd gir b bht rha tha to ktwa lie Voted for the first time #Next(2021) Job reality jo bakiyon ki dikh rhi wo dekhi nhi ja rhi hmse. The whole point is ki job nhi, career bnana h. The other point is ki i have spent quarter of a century of my life figuring out my life.."agr zindagi, zindagi bnanane m hi nikl jae gi to zindagi jienge kb?" So I'm back to square one giving my third attempt, lets really hope that this time things do really turn around...