A letter from February 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, So how are you? I know you'll always say you're fine, but are you truly fine? Girl you keep lying to yourself, on what you truly feel. I know life was very rough with you, ever since in your childhood. I know you grew up with a miserable and lonely life, spending your nights crying and overthinking. Waking up late on noons or afternoons, trying to always seek the good or bright sides of each day. Broken families, broken homes that doesn't feel like homes. Enduring each day painful insults, look downs and abuses from your own. A "families", that doesn't feel like a families. Supposed to be they're the one's to truly guide you, help you,love you, and more , but they're making you feel the exact opposite of what a family supposed to be. Growing up with scars both inner and outer, growing up soul's filled up with despair, loneliness, pain, hatred and anger. I know as you are now in adulthood, I hope you've become stronger , matured and wiser with what you're doing with your life. I'm always proud with you for not truly ending your life, despite how many times you've wanted to end your life, times you're trying to commit suicide. Please continue the progress, to becoming the best version of you. I hope you are now trying your best studying , with your chosen college course where you are truly happy and passionate with. I hope your parents didn't forced or stopped you for reaching your dreams, or your happiness. I hope after your college years ,you've become what you've always wanted to be. Keep soaring high the skies! Future senior captain pilot! Never let the past, present, or the negative people be the hindrance towards your future career you've always wanted. Take care, and love you always my dear self.