A letter from February 1st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey ***** you did it. You lived past these years. If you get this it means that some things got better. Maybe things got worse. Maybe you got into drugs or alcohol. I’m just glad you are still alive and reading emails lol. Nobody will love you the way I have always loved you. Maybe if you have found someone they could come close. Everyone can be so ******* stupid. Maybe hit up some old friends. Even some new friends. I’m really hoping you might have lost your virginity to somebody special. Hopefully they know how kinky you are😏 and how loving you are. The love of how someone wants to hold you. I can’t wait to see what has happened. Right now I want to **** myself and forget about how numb I feel. Maybe the feeling has gone away or still is lingering in the back of your mind. Remember that I still love myself now. I am just not liking how I don’t feel loved and no One makes much of an effort to make me believe it. I am hanging in there for Lumos and Oreo. I LOVE YOU. YOU LOVE YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 17 year old Edith. February 1st, 2021