A letter from January 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, heehee hello!!! HOW OLD ARE YOU ALREADY? im writing this when you were 17, and now you are already 22 years old pogchamp :D sooooo hows it like in 2026? rn im in the house yknow,,, in quarantine writing this cause im bored. 2020 was **** ngl. just a reminder to smile always, it makes everyone else happy :) be a nice person and dont find reasons to hate somebody for no reason. forgive people if they deserve it, and drop anybody who you think is NOT worth it. idk, senior year was not really,,,,, what i expected.... year 10 was just a layered cake overflowing of schoolwork, homework and stress. it went by pretty quickly. term one was fun tho. you sat downstairs for lunch and stuff, that was cool. year 11,,,, not any much better. i am praying you kept promises with aretha and trisha, and are still friends with them. please do not push them away or leave them... please dont repeat any mistakes. right now im in a pretty tight spot when it comes to the 'friendgroup'. i just dont feel... myself with them all,, serene, aretha, and chole. i just dont feel happy being together with them at the moment. not to mention how im feeling so unmotivated and just,,, blurred. when i go to school i just overthink things and end up not listening at all. im really trying to fix myself so you wont be suffering. ill try to keep that promise. its only the 25th of jan, so not much happening hahah. just a bunch of art debt. i might write several entries this year tho, like how igcse was, graduation, seeing if covid will get any better, maybe prom... i hope you doing good? are you an artist yet? a professional one? one with a degree with art? if you are, thats cool. weird how we managed how to convince mom and ayah to send me to an art school. how about in terms of money? i hope you arent being all greedy and ****. save money okay? you are already 22 years old, geez. im kinda curious, how many things have you achived in the last five years. ill list down what i wanted to do this year and you can check them off (IF YOU DID THEM) ate an ice cream while its snowing fancy picnic in europe wear pretty pink dresses around europe get into dream art college visit trishas family in sabah a comfy new condominium getting a new tablet (i want the s7+ rn) a boyfriend?????? pleaaaaase tell me you at least did one of them, preferably the ice cream in snow one, cause it my lifelong dream. please dont delay it for too long. you know how bad i wanted it. **** this was alot lmfaooo. since this is pretty much a big year for me, with all the gcse and graduation **** going on and stuff, i guess ill write plenty this year. i think i said this somewhere in the letter, oh well. also, how is tommyinnt doing rn? rewatch all the dream smp content if you are bored hAHHAHAHAH i bet he has a girlfriend already. pls be happy for him. he made our 2020/2021 better. as well as dream. and george and sapnap. and quackity, ranboo, awesamdude, tubbo, fundy, wilbursoot, nihachu, punz, eret, badboyhalo, skeppy, grian, spifey, boffy, purpled, antfrost, and many more!! of course i cant remember all of them at once but i love them sm, they really made me so much happier and helped me get away from reality. i love them. anyways, that concludes this letter. ill be getting one from 2018? in 2023. not sure what i wrote in there but i bet its not alot lol, or might be from 2016. idk. (getting off topic again omg) sooooo i hope you are doing well and stuff now, yknow,,, achieved the things i dreamt of when i was small, being in a comfortable spot or not. even if you are struggling, i hope everything gets better for you. i pray for you <3 good luck, 22 year old me. i wish you happiness from the 17 me. i hope you arent in what i am going through right now. everything will get better. :) btw, did the adhd wear off yet? its supposed to wear off once we are adults, right? i hope so, cause thats what the doc said. im really struggling with my grades at the moment. ill make it up though!! see you in the future, my friend!:D