A letter from January 24th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, i need to feel something right now, im hanging on by a thread. someone save me from myself. if you are reading this then congrats you made it to 21! you are alive. i feel invisible. like completely empty inside. it hurts cause i don't think anyone cares. i don't know what to do. im just so lost. i need to get out of this house and be on my own. the feeling that i feel is not me, but i don't know what to do about it. i feel alone in a crowded room. i feel like no one listens to me. if you’re reading this please, im begging you, take care of yourself. love yourself before anyone else. respect your self because you deserve it. you have hope and purpose. you will do great things, i know it. push through. don't be afraid to distance yourself from people who no longer serve you purpose. because what is the point. why make yourself suffer when you deserve to be happy. you deserve the world, whether you believe it or not. just say it over and over again till you believe it. ok now on another note. today was your 16th birthday. it was pretty good. i played some games with e-bestie and kaela. i posted pictures of just me for the first time ever and it got positive results! i was so self conscious but now i think i can do it more often. I got my bellybutton and other nostril pierced yesterday. i officially have 12 piercings!! i got a car at the beginning of the month, super exciting. what else? (i edited this because i remembered that im getting my wisdom teeth out on Tuesday, but that’s really it, lol)i think thats it. anyway, that was all im just laying in bed think about how ill be 21 in only five years. that’s really crazy to me. don't forget to love yourself and appreciate yourself. you are beautiful, kind, loving, and everything in between. you deserve everything coming your way!! love u bby🤍🤍