A letter from January 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I really hope you're well. I hope you're healthy first of all. Physically and mentally. Right now I'm getting ready for my exams. Well I'm trying to get ready but basically I'm just sitting around doing nothing. See, future me, i am not okay. I don't know exactly what is wrong but something is wrong. And this time i am not getting help for it. I really see no hope for the future which is ironic cause I'm writing to you. I don't know when you're gonna read this. I hope by then you're doing something for yourself. I hope by then you love yourself and are proud of yourself. Maybe you haven't done a lot considering to you but are you alive? I hope the answer is yes. And if it congratulations. You have made me proud. You're waking up and breathing that's enough. But please try to be happy. Please love yourself cause you're strong and beautiful and everything you admire to other people. I hope you're sometimes happy. I hope you have found love until then. In any way. And i hope you have kept the love you have now. Future me, wherever you are please don't forget to be kind to yourself and to others. Wherever you are just know that the past you is proud. Love with all your heart. Write the book you always wanted. Feel everything even if it hurts. Be as happy as you can. And when you see this if you still haven't smiled, please smile. Cause it suits you. Future me, I'll see you in a few years. A gentle hug from your past self.