A letter from January 19th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, HEYYYY GORGEOUS omg you’re in collage about to finish your freshman year I think!?! Anyways I just got done playing fort with Mari, Bri, Manuel, & aiden! I literally love them, they make me forget the sadness and forget the fact that I’m losing myself day by day. I’ve recently tried to manifest myself awaking from reality and it’s been working because everyday I realize how everything is like a simulation and we are living the way the system wants us to live. School is useless. Collage is useless. But it’s been normalized that that’s the only way to be “successful” which is not true. I want to make my parents proud and obviously my future self proud. Are you proud of me? Are you proud that I spent my teenage years working hard studying, in order to get straight A’s and making sure I don’t make any mistakes in life? Are you proud of me, your past? The person that made you stronger? I’m losing myself day by day. Because I feel like no one really needs me, they just like the fact that they have company. I don’t know maybe I’m over reacting. I’ve started to feel less and less confident. I don’t know why I started acting like this? Why ? Why do I feel useless? Why do I care? I never care? Why? I really hope you’re the best version of yourself, me. Are you happy ? You’re gorgeous I know you are! You’re happy and proud of what I’ve helped you become! Your proud of everything that happened because it made you stronger! I’m proud of you :) and Ik mom and dad are too! Let’s talk about you being an aunt! Is the baby okay ? How did the gender reveal go? What’s the name? The gender? Does he/she love you? How’s your siblings do they have more kids? Did you end up moving out? What happened to your parents? Do you all live in Costa Mesa now??? I hope you do it would be for the best! Are you investing I really hope you are :) treat your parents to something nice show them your love! <3 ouuu is there someone special in your life??? Do you have a bf?? Omg I kinda hope you do even tho you’ll be great being independent as well! Let’s talk about hobbies! Soccer, how’s that going? What’s about volleyball, basketball, and softball? I just finished naruto the kid version and I finished aot a long time ago! What have you watched now ? Ohhh and this is the big question! Is covid over and who’s gonna be the next runner up for president? Agh I just hope it’s over :) anyways ima go watch naruto okay gorgeous have a great day and keep being fashionable and post on the ig 🥰 I love you