A letter from your past emo self :]

Dear FutureMe, HAPPY BIRTHDAY :> I'm having a real tough time right now so I don't know if your alive or not but if you are, this is for you. I don't know how much longer I can take it. Everyday is so draining and Isabella still can't take my suicidal thoughts seriously. Anyways, i'm pretty sure that by the time you get this covid is going to be over so, have you made any friends (or gotten a girlfriend by any chance)? If you did, i'm glad someone actually came to save us. Please do not take them for advantage. If you can, text them, tell them you love them, and take a good minute to feel grateful! Anyways, enough about you, Ill tell you how my state is currently. I have no friends other than Isabella (who laughs at me when I have mental breakdowns), and am slowly becoming desperate for love from someone who actually cares. ALSO UH I learned something recently. Y'know how we're super good at masking right? Since i'm good at masking, no one can tell when i'm sad, mad or anything other than happy. So if I don't look like I need help, no one will ever save me. I don't care if I have to be covered in cuts and bruises. I don't care if I have to look skinny and fragile. At this point i'll do anything for affection. From anyone (Tell me if my mindset has changed in anyway) Anyways, that's about it! Hopefully you're either dead or mentally stable! Have a good day and show this to Isabella :]