A letter from January 14th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I feel uneasy. I want to hide and lock down my whole family. I recently have been informed that someone that I know is leaving Sacramento because she received ***** threats from a white supremist in our area. That he is going to hunt her down and hurt her. On his Facebook he has **** and trump supporting messages. Im just thinking of the MANY trump flags in my area, the *** stores with long lines, the "blue lives matter" flags all around (even though they completely full on fought back and attacked police officers in the recent capitol attack). Im terrified of my brown mother walking by herself, minding her business, with her kindness and sweet intentions. Im scared for my family who lives in the red state of Texas and Florida etc. I am fearful. Its like we cant ever escape whiteness. Always a constant reminder "you dont belong here" "you dont matter" "you deserved to be abused of" "youre worth nothing and cant do nothing". Thats what they said at the Capitol the 6th. We were getting a taste of the new America when we won in Georga. Then this happens, the old America hanging on to dear life. Successfully breached the capitol. Barely any police presence. The little that were there, even cheered on rioters and stood back. I am done. Im mad and I am grieving.