A letter from January 14th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I’m not sure if you’ll ever see this I’d be surprised if you did. But if you are reading this good job on staying alive I’m 14 now (it’s moms birthday today 2021) so you should be 19 I presume? Idk I’m bad at math. **** I didn’t think we’d make it past 15. Good job. When was the last time you S/h?? Are you clean I hope you are I’m 10 months and 26 days (: how’s life going you’re in college rn I think wait no you’re in Uni right? What are you studying? Are you doing what you love or are you still holding yourself to others’ expectations? It’s fine if you are I understand how stressful it is when people are watching what you do. I hope you’re happy and not just the 1 minute happy like the actual happy happy the one where you have nothing to be sad about. Do you have anyone to love? Or anyone who loves you? I hope you do I know how lonely you get and how clingy you can be. Ik how easily attached you get too but I hope you’ve stopped letting people walk all over you. Anyways how’s the world? Is covid still around? Are there still quarantines? I’m in the second lockdown again it’s lasting till March (back where it all started huh) I hate being so alone. How’s ma is she married is she happy? Has dad contacted after his marriage and have you met the other woman? I hope he hasn’t he should stay far away from u as possible he doesn’t deserve u. Have u ever gotten covid? I’m convinced we are immune. Did you ever get diagnosed for your mental health? Or ocd? Have you ever gotten therapy I hope you have but ik it’s hard to talk about things so I can understand if you didn’t. Do you still talk to katie or bell? Is BLACKPINK still around and are you still madly in love with Rosé? I hope they haven’t disbanded i love them so much. I feel as though they’re the only thing keeping me smiling. Are you still in the mf closet? Did you lose the weight you’ve been wanting to? Or did you gain. I hope you didn’t gain Ive been struggling with body dysmorphia lately. I don’t think I’ll ever love myself. I’m getting sleepy And oh before I go do you still listen to these songs?: Drivers licence Olivia Rodrigo (this song is FIRE I can’t stop crying to it LMFAO) Stay gracie Abrams Deathbed powfu I duckinf hatew u Is tiktok still around? I love you stay safe Ps I bet u forgot abt this (: so surprise ig