A letter from January 13th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, January 13 2021... Just listened to driver license by Olivia Rodrigo been listening to in on repeat now because all I want to do is drive by nanny's house or an old school jeremiah old house and then drive away listening to this song and just let everything out but I can... But when I get my drivers license guess what I'm doing just that... I thought I was happy but I just hit another depression episode I'll let you know how long it last of course.... Dani is officially 6 weeks clean I'm so proud of her... I wish she understood how proud of her I am... I wish she knew hope much she meant to me like she my/our yellow💛 I would bleed myself dry for her I would give her my heart if she needed it... And I don't think she'll ever understand that but it's ok because we know how much we love her and that's all that matters... I want to message Mama V and talk to her but I don't want to bother her I always feel as if I'm a burden to her I know I'm not but my mind always tells me I am so thats why I don't talk to her much... Well any ways I'm going to try to go to sleep it is 6:54am so bye Love..., Past Us/Sammie 💕