A letter from January 8th, 2021

my relation with my father is a totally mess, he don't talk to me , don't care about me, and don't know anything about me .... it kinda makes me sad that strangers might know me better than him ... I need a hero in my life and I don't trust guys out side... Everytime I say that I'm so done I don't want his love anymore, but find myself crying myself to sleep because of him ... I have no hope but at least I can ask : did he change? did anything about this change? do u feel better ? wut about mom , is she treating you better ? did she ever ask you "how was your day ?" yet ? pffff, let's stop talking about bad things ... emmm lemme see did u start learning to cook ? you have no idea how much I want learn cooking, no u do XD wut about learning korean , how is it going so far , I bet that ur a pro now ... or chinese , Turkish, Spanish... did u french got better btw , I'm working on it already ;) did u finish writing any of your books ? did u publish any of em ... I'm so excited.... I'm gonna start drawing soon , and wanna start painting after it ... is it a good idea ? wuuut about graphic design, I remember that I was so excited to learn it ... still ... but did not get a nice laptop yet ... so yeah ... learning piano ? or violin? nevermind.. my life is at it's worst state ever ... so I bet that the future will be better ♡ I'll try to be safe till then, ill give it my best for you to have a better life ♡