A letter from January 1st, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey, you survived! Don't forget to praise and thank God every moment okay? I am proud of you despite the failure to finish your 2020 journal. I love how we celebrate your adulthood, 18th bday! God knows your pain and your family is always there. You can do it! I'm still suffering from my not-yet-diagnosed-but-hopefully-not depression and anxiety. I am asking God always for forgiveness for being stressed and for praying to die. I am trully weak and I hope you are not now. I know you are strong because you have gone through many things and God is there. I am departing myself to anyone and I hate it because just like what Jabez said, I am becoming the person I hated the most. That's effin true. I am so sorry. I got tired of socializing to anyone whoever it is. I tend to avoid talking with other people through social media. I just want to live simply and happily with my family. Yeah, I'm still hoping for my family to live longer and I can just be caught by God coz I am the headache of this fam haha. I am not the old us now. However, I can still be the "nanay", "artist", "passionate", and "religious" we grew up with. I am praying and praying that I will be better each day and God will help me be the best version He wants me to be. I have now a simple, minimalist, and elegant planner/journal. I will do my best to record my life so you have something to look back to. Also, I am starting to do makeup and collecting materials ya know for important matters. So, yeah, 2021 is a step closer to His coming and I am super excited to meet Him hopefully, as prepared too! I love you!