A letter from December 30th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Imagine this, you got back from India a month and a half ago... failed eligibility exams(redoing them in feb and hoping we pass), counting on some people for a job that I may not get and pays a little bit! Managed to convince myself I need it just for experience... every child at home makes me feel bad about myself because I should be working if I graduated 🤦🏻‍♀️ I feel bad about Panda and dumped Tee that ******* 🤮 what was I thinking?! Smh. He may never pay me since he was supposed to tell me on Monday, it’s Wednesday. There’s a fool called Zigi that owes me and won’t pay me as well. My life sucks🤦🏻‍♀️ If in 5 years I am doing worse, I recommend suicide because I’ll just be a total loser that has known nothing but suffering my whole life. I wish u good luck and hope u make money any way possible. If we are still broke in 5years, let’s go to Russia and become the best assassin the world has ever seen and maybe do a favour to this country and **** the president... if it’s still the dictator, or if bw sells our country to the white man😏 I’m so depressed girl I hate being a first born child(daughter in a typical African family) I’m always pushing tears back, I hope I am not sad, I hope I get happiness in the future. I’m counting on time to show me a way. Good luck