A letter from December 29th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, 2025... I already know you made it through 2020 but is it better? Did you accomplish the things you wanted? I don't even know what those things are to be honest. Sitting here trying to write this letter to ask you questions, I don't know what we want. So I'll say the things I hope for us. I hope you actually went to the Patrol. Or found somewhere where you're happier. Kenneth made you believe in yourself just enough to push you, I hope you didn't let him ending things stop you from going after something you've wanted for a while now. He genuinely believed in you and so do others. I hope you found someone who loves you and puts you first for a change. I hope you realized your worth finally. I know this year made you question what that was a lot. I hope YOU are genuinely happy. Not the happy we've been putting on for people right now and then in the dark, lonely moments we rarely get, the real you comes out and you don't have to pretend for anyone. Don't let those dark, lonely moments get to you too much. There will always be something to look forward to. I hope you still have Kate and Josh in your life. Those two have been through it all with you. I also hope you made more quality friends who are there for you when you need someone. I know we felt alone for a very long time. I hope our family got closer. Everyone is so spread out right now and hardly in touch it feels like after we all went out and became our own persons. There's so many things I hope for but those are the main ones. Is Cade happy? Is he still with Briggs? Are you an AUNTIE NOW?? Luke would be like 14??? that's scary to think. Who has he become? Who even is in your life still? Who left and who stuck around? Ramon? Kenny? Dominic? Did any of them last this long as your friends? Or did they all disappear as the years went by like most have? Have you spoken to Dylan any? If you do happen to be with someone now, is it someone we knew in 2020 or someone brand new? Are you still only talking/dating toxic cops? Do you still stay in touch with anyone from BLET? Did you go back to Pitt? Stay in Durham? Go completely off the walls and end up somewhere else? Who are you now? It's so hard to think about what you'll be like 5 years from now. I so often don't even know how our next week will go, let alone the next few years. I hope you're happy, healthy, and loved. You accomplished things no one thought you could in 2020. You showed the people who doubted you what you're really made of. I hope you have continued to do that baby. I'll always be proud of you. You dealt with heartbreak after heartbreak, when you only ever tried your best. And thats okay, people lost out on you, not the other way around. I know you miss people and wish things could have turned out differently because Lord knows I do, but God's always gonna give us the best outcome. We stopped asking for what we wanted and just asked Him for the best outcome we can get along with peace. And it's helped so far. I wonder how and where life will take us. Much love, 2020 B PS I hope you have a PHAT *** and some nice ******* now. Im gonna be VERY disappointed if we haven't got that **** job yet HAHA