A letter from December 26th, 2020

5 years mother ******. Who woulda thought this would last so long. I truly think we have a purpose in life and whatever that is, I hope we find it and I believe we will. We’re so strong and passionate about everything we do. I hope they everyone can see how your hard work and kindness has paid off. Not many ppl gave you the time of day, at 17 when you moved out between 22 which you are now. But let me tell you, as a drunk 22 year old whose felt like they’ve experienced a lot for their hand that’s been dealt, that making it this far is special and you are going to find something you care so deeply about that none of this matters despite your constantly hatred to yourself for not relaising what is it yet. You’ll figure it out and when you do, you’re gonna be unstoppable. You were born for a reason, that reason being very special in my opinion and who knows what will happen but I believe in you here and now. Be happy. It’s all you wanted. And once you’re done living for yourself, go and become a doctor and prove every single one of them wrong. Save every life possible. You’re going to do incredible things one way or another. Idc how much money you’re making, all I want is for the world to be even a tiny little bit better because of you, or you just being content with the life you have. Life’s ******* ****** and tough but keep going, keep thriving and no matter what, stay true to you, what you belong and what u wanna do. There isn’t any “truth” right now with covid and life in general. Idk what the **** you’re gonna be doing. But I know you shouldn’t settle and if this is a “sign” then let it be a ******* “sign” to do what you’re passionate about. And if it is still medicine DO IT GIRL. you’re gonna make a fantastic doctor and succeed in it because you ARE passionate about it (st least now). I refuse to let you underestimate yourself for a single day more. Go get em. I really hope in 5years I won’t read this back and be completely wrong but there is always that chance. I truly think we are meant for smth special weather we know I this year, next year or in the next 5.,10, 15,20 years, etc. Just keep pushing. I love you no matter what. You deserve more than you think, and you deserve happiness above all else.