A letter from December 24th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It is Christmas eve's eve at 10:20 pm in 2020,, the pandemic. I am good. I am going to drown out every feeling into a couple sentences. I have lost everything in the past year. My best friend moved to utah, my friend group is ****, my family is abusive, my relationship with the my brother is nonexistent. I am treated like **** day in and day out. Online school is ******* me. I just want to enjoy soccer as it is. To be honest, college recruiting is ruining soccer for me. I just want to commit and be done. I want to have something to work toward. Soccer is all I have left and soon that will be gone too. It is hard right now. I want to train all day, every day but we don't have the money. I feel like my parents think that success is so natural. NO. I need to work and nobody understands. But, I am beyond blessed at this point in my life. Honestly, I think I want to go to Baylor but I just can't fully invest in my decision yet. I JUST WANT TO PLAY. No more expectations. Let me love the game I have played. This pandemic has taught me so much about myslef. After getting it, I relaized I am in history. I know that I want to help people and so much can change in aa year so GO LIVE YOUR ******* LIFE. You still haven't had your first kiss so get your shat together. You are doing great Sarah. Remember, God is on your side. Merry Vhristmas AND BE THE BEST. NEVER SETTLE AND DO WHAT YOU LOVE. keep pushing forward sarah. I love you always. You're a strong kid. Ayo, get **** done swaggy sarah. Peace out lose <3 Sarah yas