A letter from December 23rd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey girlie how are you? lately its been kinda had getting out of bed in the mornings, this past year has been the worst year ever not only with cover but with everything else going on your teratoma all the losses that have happened this past year. I truly believe that this year is what is going to make you survive. Hector was a great friend who left a big hole in your life and its a hole that no one is ever going to be able to fill. he was the type of friend who could make you laugh but could also be serious when you needed him to be, and you lost that this past year you lost the ability to just reach out and I hoe that with the loss of him that you now reach out because tase people will not be here forever and you should not lose sight of that.its been 5 whole years and I hope 19 year old abby hopes that you have found the love of your life the true love of your life and I hope you have a baby by now or 2 hell maybe even 3. I hope your doing great but if im being honest im just glad your alive. Are you still living in Idaho or have you moved if so where? Kyrie is freaking married to her fiancé by now im sure sooo does she have some babies yet?This has been a year with great lessons and loss now how is mirra and Emma? have y'all made up yet? value all your friends and know when you are wrong that is what you need to teach yourself or learn to teach yourself. you are trying to lose weight how did that go? does haeleah have another baby? what is willy into? how is the family do they approve of who you are with? did you finally do something about your acting? you are good everyone knows it you need to take that extra leap of faith and go for it I promise you won't regret It!! I hope that you have a whole entire life that makes life worth living for and I hope mom has learned how to treat you and people in general and if she hasn't I hope you don't keep that toxicity in your life. I am living at home right now and I hate it its back to where I feel like I can't breathe and everyday I feel the walls caving in and my anxiety really sky rockets. Brooke, has she learned the value of true affection or are the guys who want you still getting at her to try to get at you? she needs to learn that true love and affection doesn't come from vengeance. Nico he's what 19 or almost 19 how is he what is he into now days is he?? or it doesn't matter at the end of the day we accept him. ***** comes and sometimes we see it and others we don't. this year has taught me that more then any year really. no one is allergic to ***** no one is exempt to ***** and thats something that you are leaning you've learned a lot this year, Jasper Stell or Jasper Warner how is he? this kid came into your life and you truly love him like your own little brother, you care about him and his well being he has taught you so much this past year he taught you that just because you have a terrible up bringing or bad things happen you don't need to be a terrible person this boy is such a tough shell such a little sick head but deep down he's a guy that is nice and warm hearted he never judged you when you told him about your past he never questioned why you were put in any of those situations he simply listened and cared and he was there for you when no one else was. so check up on him. he said one day he might be decent and the little **** better have become decent. I want you to be living a great life and I don't want you to look back at all this and think that you need to have all these feelings rushing back but its good to look back everyone in awhile to just remember all the little things "your a good person, don't let the world **** you up" now incase you are planning a baby or such heres your list of baby names for you girls Aviana analeigha Nevaeh Aislynn leighlynn grace juniper dahlia cove ailani haitey faith beta lynn paislea ann reign ethereal grace Brielle eve gabiana boys Ellington gabino isiä xavier hector Josiah john Oliver James atlas grey Greyson brooks Ridley John hireath James much love, 19