A letter from December 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I chose to write a letter that will be from 5 years ago when I read this. I am 21 years old. It is December of 2020, and after the longest, toughest year I have yet experienced after the global pandemic rid me of 2 semesters and lots of experiences, I am ready for a new chapter. Know that right now, I am recovering from my ED. Still in the process, but getting there. I got a personal trainer, and I am ready to change. By the time I read this letter, I will be 26 years old. Here are some of my manifestations for my life 5 years from now; I will be finishing up graduate school. I am in a stable, loving, and healthy relationship, with a bright-eyed, brown-haired, tall, funny, and loyal man, who is successful, and wealthy. He loves me, and we will get engaged, maybe in a year. I own 2 houses by 26, and maybe even my parents' house whee I grew up. Dads business is extremely successful and I am active in the business as well. I am grateful to have traveled to 10 countries. I drive a Mercedez-Benz. I have a stable job that I love so much. I began writing my book. I published research and presented it at conferences. I attend Stony Brook University beginning in 2021. I have a toned, fit, and healthy body, that loves to exercise. I have so much energy, and I am finally and completely in love with myself and my life. I hope that my Grandparents are still alive and well. If they are- appreciate them for me. Its hard to even think of where I will be 5 years in the future. Will I be moved out? Probably but also maybe not LOL. For a little glipse into my life right now, I am going into my last semester of undergrad. Christmas is this week. For my 21st we had a party at my house then a surprise party where I literally almost threw up, but i cried bc i hate surprises. We went to the lakehouse with the stamms and Natalie and had the most incredible time. I hope that the feeling and need to impress others will be gone in five years. I will let my actions and accomplishments speak for themselves and have no need for a competition like feeling. I read 14 books this year from June on. I took myself off the pill because it was giving me depression and anxiety. I am now on Nuvaring even though I don't really wanna be on anything. Me and Andrianna stopped speaking for a month this year, and Im curious if we got close again or if we drifted. Ill always love her I just don't know if it can ever be the same. I am so excited for all that the future holds and I know that success is in store for me. I wonder if by the time I read this letter, Emma and Mike will be married, or engaged. Probably. I hope the houses I own are beautiful and bring in lots of revenue. Dont ever feel like you are old- or that it is too late to follow your dreams. Whatever you want to do right now- go do it. One life is all you get, and if this year has taught me anything- it's to never take a moment for granted. I hope you skydive. I hope you smile and laugh every day. Maybe follow that dream to assist at wedding planning to get you through school. Either way, Im proud of me. I think this letter is the cutest thing ever, and I cant wait. Give yourself permission to breathe, and step back. Dont take on others problems and lower your own vibe. Be you authentically and unapologetically. Go model. Either way- know that I am proud of myself now and I am Proud of YOU who is 5 years older and wiser- who has probably done incredible things and met incredible people. I am proud of myself. I am proud of the person you are and who you are becoming.