A letter from December 21st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Right now life sucks there’re a pandemic going on and I can’t see any of my friends. Mom and dad are not the nicest all the time and I’m not either. Right now I’m almost 14 and I’m taken by my lovely boyfriend Landon that I love so so much hopefully I’ll still be dating him when I get this letter. Okay besides that this is what my life is like. It is currently Sunday, December 20th at 9:52 pm. I’m in 8th grade and it sucks so far. I’m in a relationship with my boyfriend Landon. I still share a room with Mia. I’m current about 166 lbs and I sucks I hate being fat and sometimes I don’t eat because I don’t like the way I look like today I went on a 3 mile run and only ate a small salad today so I could lose weight. I’m also really sad all the time and I don’t know what to do about it cause it’s hard to talk to people when they aren’t there for me and I’m always there for them. Like my bestfriend ever Adriana she has depression and she talks to me a lot but whenever I’m sad I don’t talk to anyone because I feel like I’ll make her more sad by me being sad so I just keep it in it’ll I can’t anymore. By the time I’ll be seeing this ill most like be 18 turning 19 so hopefully I won’t forget to check my email. Here are some questions I want to ask future me. Are you happy, what collage did you go to if you are going to one. What’s your career choice. How your relationship with your family. Are you single if not how’s the girl or guy and how long have you been with them. Did you finally lose weight and become the person you’ve always wanted to me. Did you get those tattoos you’ve always wanted. Are you expressing yourself the way you wanted to in fashion. How is your relationship with your mom and dad. Did you meet your biological dad yet. Did you meet your brother. Did you meet your biological dads side of the family. Did you have a glow up yet cause right now your still ugly lmao. Who are some of your closest friends. How’s your relationship with your sisters. Is the pandemic over yet. Is ******* Betty white dead yet. How about the queen is that ***** dead yet. Did you grow your hair out super long like you wanted to. Are you still a nicotine addict lmao. Are you still doing volleyball and cheerleading of your only doing one which one are you doing and how are you doing in it. Those are all the questions I have for future me. Please tell your atleast happy and enjoyed these 5 years because it’s now life your gonna be 19 in like 17 days you an adult hopefully you enjoyed the last 5 years and hopefully You see this in your email in 5 years. Anyways I love you and please start loving yourself if your not cause inside you are beautiful and kind and you know it you want to put on a hard front and act like you give no ***** but on the inside you want to be loved and you care a lot but don’t show it cause you have abandonment issues and trust issues. Also please tell me I’m not dead before I get to read this. Goodbye - Jade Made on December 20th, 2020 at 10:40 pm goodbye love you.