A letter from December 21st, 2020

Hello beautiful, Do you remember this day? I am so curious about your life, you have no idea (actually you do). I can see you reading this. You probably forgot it maybe. I wanted to see if everything is okay. Where are you living right now? Are you still single? Are you alive... I hope you are, I feel like there is an amazing future ahead of us. Things are confusing right now. We as in I, unsure of where I will be standing. Is mom and dad ok? Is my siblings and nephews okay? I hope everyone is well. I am scared.. You already know what I have been through. I wish I can be where you are right now. I wish I was able to see your life. This actually feels pretty amazing. I am curious, are you done with law school or did you decide to become a clinical psychologist? Dad wanted you to go to law...... Dear future self, I am having major anxiety. I do not know where I will be or what I will do in my future. I just know that all I want is everyone to be healthy and for myself to live life like no other. I hope you had the best 5 years in your life. If you are not reading this, that means we are gone. It sounds scary, but I am hoping that you are okay. If you're mad, sad, or upset about something right now, know that everything will be okay. If you are happy about something, we waited for a long time for this! Life is very challenging, but we got this. Are you living in Istanbul or are you still at USA? I hope that you have made a choice that you are going to be happy with. Dear future self, I am afraid. Am I successful? Aaa.. DO I HAVE ANY CHILDREN? If I do, I bet it is a girl and if it is a boy you are a terrible guesser. I am listening to yaramizda kalsin right now. What a melankolik I am lol. I want to ask so many questions, but this one way relationship isn't that great right now. I am asking, but you will answer in 5 years... hopefully. I love you beautiful. Iyiki dogmussun.. Olmussun 28. 2 yil kalmis 30'a.. Neyse sen yas konusunda tribe giriyorsun baya o yuzden bu mezvuyu kapatip. 28inci yasin kutlu olsun sevdiklerinle. Umuyorum ki hayat sana iyi bakmistir. Adios mi amor, P