A letter from December 19th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today I woke up with a relief in my heart deeply after my break up with the person I thought I was going to be with the rest of my life with broke up with me I hit rock bottom and I felt broken, alone, scared, and In pain with myself because I always blamed myself for being the problem we broke up in feb of this year but to this day iam so thankful for the decision he took I feel like if we never let go of eachother I would have never had to courage to do things by my self to have the biggest change of my life which iam so grateful for every day I’ve over come so much when I thought I couldn’t do it alone when I though I was worthless had no one and couldn’t make it on my own when I was in depression due to me being raped young and sexually harassed by family members changed my whole perspective of life and of myself and yes to this day it still affects some of my decision but I have over come so much by myself I over came my depression my anxiety and me being alone and even tho I’ve been hurt treated badly abused and broken I’ve learned to pick myself up and clean my tears and I’ve learned to heal and let go of the things that have hurt me in my past because I told myself I wasn’t going to those things affect my life and also with god by my side he never left when ever I cried myself to sleep and when ever I was talking to him I couldn’t see him but I could feel him and I know he never left my side my god is beautiful and great and he has helped me over come my fears because I handed to him all my worries and sorrows to him and he changed my heart and healed me from the better he’s my creator and a god of miracles and thanks to him my perspective of many things changed I see life the way I wished I would have along time ago and I can say iam proud of myself and my accomplishments and it hasn’t been easy but it’s definitely not impossible and now I enjoy being alone spending time with myself and being the best I can for me and myself so when you receive this letter I want you to be proud of yourself and be happy because you deserve it with god you fixed and healed your broken heart and wings and now your flying with peace and just let your life flow let god decide the way for you he knows what’s best and just let him take the wheel of your life you also lost one of the most beloved person in your life but I know heaven gained a beautiful angel grandpa I hope you know I love you so much and I miss you everyday but that’s life and we just have to accept it so whenever you read this I want you to know that even tho this year there were ups and downs in your life you still made it iam so proud of and keep working hard for yourself and doing the best for yourself it’s the best you can do don’t forget your beautiful amazing and one of a kind and that will never change no matter how hard your life gets don’t quit because life is full of obstacles but your strong enough to overcome all of them I love you beautiful❤️