A letter from December 19th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, You’re sitting in bed on the hill top right now, watching Bambi. You’re tired from working at the bank, busy Friday. fell asleep on the couch for several hours. Why work? Does money rule everything? It’s okay to cry. But remember J. O. Y.? Jesus over yourself & joy is different than happiness and that comes from God and NO one can take that away. You’re in a bind right now but God has your back. I have no clue what to do... maybe when I get this I’ll have my life in a better place. You started smoking more... helps anxiety and depression (makes you relaxed, at least that’s what you tell people). The election isn’t over, but you don’t really pay attention to politics so who knows. We’re also in the covid -19 pandemic. Having to wear face masks everywhere, and social distancing. College has been interesting, haven’t been partying at much but it’s a good thing. You’re very sad and lonely but don’t tell anyone sometimes. You cry a lot too lol. Thinking about transferring to Corpus Christi and see where that takes you but who knows what God has in store... mom and you have been fighting but not as bad, she doesn’t trust me at all. Dad has been working and drinking a whole lot, very sad. Idk what all else to say tbh. Anyways, hope you have a fantastic day and enjoy this. I love you dude. Stay strong