A letter from December 18th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey. right now im sitting in dads apartment at 12;18 AM. I graduated and Made it through high school, D is 5 years old, M&Z have their own house, Grandma&grandpa are 84 and in great health, Char is a MSU student. anyways right now im in the Aliyah process and want to enlist into the IDF. I wonder if by the time I get this ill be a soldier or doing something cool haha. I've been talking to a guy from Saudi Arabia for about a month now. his name is Ahmad. he makes me feel things. we spend hours on FaceTime and he makes me feel so good. I know I know, he's , Muslim and im jewish. I never thought id be friends with a muslim let alone feel this way towards one. he said something similar to me abt jews. I mean how ignorant of the both of us. after all we are all humans just trying to survive. all most humans want is to feel happiness and love. I think most people have more in common with each other then we would like to admit. blah blah blah anyways I know it sounds crazy but we are planning a future together. I know im confused right now regarding faith and spirtuality so I hope by the time I open this everything turned out okay. im setting this to 5 years oh wow wait grandma and grandpa are probably gonna be gone by then; a big part of me wants to just leave America and start a new life. I want kids and a family so badly away from this crazy country and my crazy life here. start fresh. you know? maybe by the time I open this ill have settled down in life. thats the goal. im sure you're gonna make me proud no matter what after all I made it the far.