A letter from December 18th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Brooooooo.... U're 20 alreadyyyyyy!! How? Easy? Ambik course apa? Ada bau bau kecemerlangan tak? Ada bau bau duit tak? How about your mom? I hope she's healthy.. Make she proud okay?! Jaga dia betul betul... Makesure kaya sama sama dengan dia okay? Makesure bagi dia bahagia dulu okay? Makesure bagi dia bangga okay? Bro u have a boyfriend? I hope no.... Please dont!.. I dont trust any men doh! Dont make yourself look stupid... And jangan jadi bodoh ok desperate nak kapel and buat ayat cam org depress nak kapel.. Aku tampar kau! Kalau single, takpe... We enjoy our life together okay? Andd... Kalau dia foreign handsome aku benarkan... Like japanese, korean, chinese... Lantaklah! Tapi kalau malaysia, bruh Back off!! Tapi kalau yang specky nerd takle... HSHSHSHHSHSHS TAH PAPE JE BUDAK 15 TAHUN NI! WEYHHHH... DENGAR CITE EXO COMEBACK OT9?! omg if that happen, please show your suppport.. Especially chen... His daughter must 5 years old something... Omo my niece! How about lay? He join them? HOPEFULLY YES!! PLEASE IM GONNA KMS IF HIM NOT!... nah kidding... Bro.. How about your introvert? Is that getting worst or better? Can u interact with your male friends? JANGAN BAPER, AKU TAMPAR KANG!.. How about your akidah? Your aurah? Your pray? Your attitudes? I hope its getting better... Your friends? Did u found your true friend? U know what, im sick now... No one theres when i nees help.. Like... Bruh! It's totally 16 and no one help me when i hurt?! Wtf was wrong with them... Weh... Aku sayang kau tau.. Biar lantak orang tak sayang kau... Yang penting aku sayang.. Jangan ignore massage ni tau.. Simpan tau... I really want to know how ure doing, did your condition was good and else... If u suffered from depression stress, remember, i still there... Im in your soul.. I never leave you... Jangan pernah terfikir nak sakitkan diri kau, or do something dangerous... We learned usulludin when we were 15 right? Bro im here.. In your soul.. Dont lie about your feelings... I know everything... Bro, if u miss me, please dont... Live like u are.. Dont miss me... Miss our memory okay? Fatin humairah, im literally crying right now.. How bout u? Ah kau dengan hati batu kau mana nak feel... Im sorry, if something wrong was happened at 2025... It's because of me... I dont do anything well.. dont blame yourself... Always Remember i still in your soul... Maybe im not like who i was today.. But, atleast you can read this massage will make me happy... Bro, study hard tau... Jangan study smart... Study smart tak pernah berkesan dekat kau... End up kau baring cam orang bodoh je nanti... Ingat our goal... Ingat jugak pesanan" aku ni... Jangan tinggal solat.. Walauapapun jangan tinggal... Quran baca... And dont be like me now... Baring kat katil for the whole year of 2020 macam orang sakit.. Today aku tidur je sepanjang hari.... Tahla ngantuk... Dah la sejuk... If u ask me that im doing well or not... Yes... Im doing well.... Kot... Kau tau apa aku class online mana belajar siot... Buat hw tapi tak faham pape HAHAHAH WEH SORRY DOH KALAU ADA IMPAK DEKAT KAU... SALAHKAN CIKGU WEHHH... SUMPAH AKU TAK SALAH... And... Aku tengah oening nak ambik course apa... Aku cadang nak ambik dini tulen au.. Sebab aku nak terbang over sea, tapi umi kata nak ambik tu boleh, tapi tak payah terbang jauh"... Padahal aku nak ambik dini tulen tu sebab aku nak ke oversea pun.. Bukan suka suka.. So aku punya inspiration hilang, so aku cadang nak amik account addmath kot... Takpe, tahun depan kena study hard sikit... Btw aku ada mohon sbpi... So aku taktaula kalau aku dapat ke tak ann... Aku harap dapatla sebab ada byk subject... Psi, ulum, pai, ba, eko, acc ngn addm3 mati siottttt.... Tapi takpe.. A banyak! Kalau ada rezeqi straight A alhamdulillah! Luas masa depan kau... Lagipun an kita nak jadi orang kayerrr... Kenalah work hard sikit... Sebenarnya kan.. Aku ngantuk tau... Tapi aku tulis jugak panjang panjang sebab aku tahu kau syok baca.. Aku harap sangat kau masih ada kat 2025... Aku harap sangat kau boleh bertahan... Tapi kalau kau tak sempat ke 2025... Aku mintak maaf sebab tak boleh cuba yang terbaik... Tapi kalau kau dapat baca ni, aku lega... Tapi kalau orang lain yg baca ni, please bagi fatin humairah baca benda ni... Kalau dia masih hidup... Kalau dia dah takde, tolong doakan dia baik baik sahaja...nauzubillah... Terima kasih atas segalanya fatin humairah... U did it.. Usaha kita berhasil... Aku sayang kau tau.. Sampai sini je aku tulis... Semoga kau sihat selalu... From: fatin humairah binti mohd yatim (surat yang ditulis Pada tahun 2020) To: fatin humairah binti mohd yatim (surat sampai pada tahun 2025) Bye ;)