A letter from December 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well. I hope you are at least dating. Or getting action. I also hope you got an apartment or something. We both know we are tired of living with parents. Hopefully in five years I would have gotten a place. How are the dogs? I sure hope the stupid *** pandemic is over. It is EXHAUSTING. P.S., do you still talk to anyone from Dunkin’? I hope so. Some of them are really good people. Are you in college, or already graduated? College is no choice, so I hope I picked a major I want. I really want to be a social worker in child welfare, but they do not get paid enough. I also considered being a pediatric nurse in a hospital full of like sick kids, and not just cancer kids. I really hope you are getting healthy or at least happy with yourself. Ooh! Moe and Angie?? How are they?? How is Melissa and Nina?? I wish I could see into the future sometimes. But I dont want to for many reasons. I know Gma D won’t make it another five years. I dont even know if Grandma will. I hope so. I dont ever want either of them to die, especially Grandma. I really miss her. Did you have a pregnancy scare yet? I sure hope I am able to have children. I dont want to go through the process of pregnancy but I do want my own mini me. I want a legacy. I want to be a mom. I even thought about adopting in the future. I want to live out my 20s first, but I would like to start settling down before 30 and be a mom before then. I have a feeling I will forever be alone. I get attached to easily. Tattoos?? Perspective tattoo?? Did you get it? Did you decide on the one you wanted to remember mom? I am still iffy on that. I miss her sometimes. I also miss it just being Angel and I, but then I don’t. Feelings are complicated right now. That is partcially why I want to move out. I am looking at places currently. Anyways. I hope you are doing good to yourself. I hope you wear a smile everyday. I guess I will see you in five years? Hope to see you then. -Taylor Christian