A letter from December 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, hey it’s December 15.2020 we are in a “ pandemic” for COVID which is something. I’m writing to you because I’m just reminding you of what a year it has been. Let’s start off in the beginning month of January you decide to not have *** but you meet a man who talks you into doing it so you do and when asked when he got him self checked he blocks you and causes a scare for you but comes out negative. So that was it. Then COVID is coming a nationwide thing going on. February you mean this trans man who seems all great and all but at the end was a complete ***. Not someone who was worth anything so you drop that person. So you sleep with someone near the end of February who you’ve always seen but yeah he ended up having a gf so that was dead you were so tired of the hurt from guys you started reading things from this girls page about God and a friend I’ve known from years ago posted about something and you guys have a conversation and finds out that you’re a Israelite ✨. And wow everything comes to a bang. You start to grow and glow. Everything is going great and you meet Michael who just comes in just feels great gives you what you wanted and then he stops. He grows distant so you move along from him and I’m still growing and glowing closer to God and his word. But I friend a old friend of mine and that’s where it goes wrong. You begin to drink and drink start having *** with people you don’t want to. Start falling back to your old self. Not respecting myself and just not caring. But you have this fight in you to keep on pushing and keep the faith so you cry and pray and pray and cry. Anxiety is thru the roof and the only thing that’s helping is the word of God. All praises to the most high. I just hope you’re still following this mans word and his laws please Christina don’t go a dark path. You don’t want your spirt in that. You’re a strong smart women. You’re a woke women who’s still learning in this truth. I will conquer anything that comes my way. Stop having *** stop settling for less when it comes to men. Learn from the past mistakes. I love you. Fear God please listen to me when I say this. You’re alive for a reason there’s a lesson for you. There’s a will for why you’re still alive. So strive for the best and the understanding of Gods word. Repent and turn away from the evil ways that you’ve been doing it’s not gonna do you no better. Don’t be lead to *****.I hope you find this as a message or better yet as a reminder. I’m still healing and learning. The worldly things will be here. I need to not choose there ways I need my father. Shalom