A letter from December 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, So first off let me update you with your current self. You're currently going through it , bad, you're sad currently maybe falling into depression you sit alone in the car and cry for no apparent reason but you yourself won't let yourself fully fall into depression , you don't want to be sad you want to be happy that you're alive, living and healthy. You just started working at JA floor coverings after working at the spirit store ( never again lol ) it's a good Opportunity but you obvi don't want to stay here forever , you want to go back to school and hopefully you do but we're waiting until COVID is over because you know us , we can't do online schooling. You're currently in a relationship and have been for the past 6 years, like everything there is good and bad days and currently you feel like you're going through a rough patch but then again idk if it's just my depression hitting but you get home and are constantly mad, angry, irritated and just want to be laying down and doing nothing but you want this relationship for life honestly so you don't want to ruin it because of your current mental health. so all in all I hope that you're doing okay. in 5 years when you read this, I hope you're happy , I hope you have an amazing career and I hope that you become that women that you've always wanted to be, hoping that you're still in the relationship that we're currently in, I hope the you're happy and that you're a mom, and that you love that. are you a nurse ? are you a mom ? are you happy ? are you okay ? are you and Lozano still together ? are you married , engaged ? " it's a bad day not a bad life " is currently what keeps you going and honestly I hope that your bad days are rare on not relevant I hope that you're alive, healthy and happy. love yourself . also ps. we're currently writing this sitting in your office at JA flooring lol. oh and we have a major addiction to cold brew coffee and sugar free red bulls , do you still like those ? also you have about 2 weeks that you don't hit a bang bar and we're also so proud of that because we know how unhealthy those things where but yeah I love you and I hope you didn't become n alcoholic okay byeee see ya in 5 years maybe write another letter to yourself then ? who knows