A letter from December 15th, 2020

i hope you find a way to exist. i hope you made it out. i hope you’re still with tyler, you love him and he’s the first boy to love you. and actually love you. well whatever love can be to a 19 year old. i hope you found a way to pay for college. i hope you don’t drive a ****** car anymore. i hope you can pass your math classes. i know you put in so much effort and still fail. it’s hard to hear your sister disappointed especially after the amount of effort you put in. i hope you don’t cry yourself to sleep anymore. i hope dads okay and Will has found his place in the world. I hope you’ve found peace with the situation regarding mom. she’s and addict and you can’t control that. she can’t see anything wrong with how she treats us and maybe it’s better that she lives in canada. actually that’s not even a maybe, it is. i hope you can find a way to see light in the constant darkness that seems to surround you. i really want us to make it out. i pray to god or whatever exists that were not living paycheck to paycheck anymore at palm beach lmfao. that place sucks so bad. i literally cannot catch a break. lastly i hope you love yourself. i hope you cry happy tears instead of sad ones. i hope you married tyler. he’s the best thing to happen to you in a very long time and good things never happen to us. tell your family you love them and be kind to yourself for me