A letter from December 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I can't wait to see how you turned out, it's crazy to thing that 5 years from now i'm going to read this and look back. Did you get to see Marc like you where dying to but your parents never really let you. Are you guys still together, you know deep down you're never going to love someone the way you loved him, or at least maybe, because that's what you thought before him. did you enlist in the airforce I HOPE TO GODDDDD YOU DONT HAVE KIDS YET😭 you where supposed to waitttt till you where 30 missyyyy, but i bet they're beautiful/ handsome. when was the last time you seen koda?:/ remember that time when you where laying on your bed and you where sharing your goldfish with her and she just got up and humped you😂 god i love her so much, totally not me crying my eyes out thinking that i'm going to read this and she isn't going to be here anymore:/ are you still close with maddy? or did you guys fade, you should call everyone and check up on them, even if you have family beef 😂 you know how the tenney house hold is 😭 we sit and be mad at eachother and makeup without apologizing. how's abby? she all grown up yet, and mom she finally started looking more like a mom and less like your sister. and dad does he still try to make you laugh when your sad, how many grey hairs does he have? also jacob ugh😤 did he go to college or he still playing that xbox😑 how's aunt diane, she still being amazing. did you finally expect uncle daniel passing? you still miss him don't you, me too:/ guess what i'm doing right now:/ i'm crying, cause it's scary thinking about in 5 years so much is gonna change. marc and i might not be together and ik that's gonna hurt so bad, he's a good guy, and yes he makes dumb decisions but so do i, so i cant be mad at him. i love him, i do and by the time you read this i hope you still do too, unlessss he does something so stupid :( which i doubt, but you never know. if all goes good with the airforce and we figured out something with tayvon you guys should be living with eachother by this time, how's tayvon? he finally found the girl he deserves. did marc and jay ever make up? idk i'm kinda hoping they do, i feel like it'll take time but ya know i do hope they make up. did marc ever get that connection with his dad he wanted to, yes i know he didn't like showing emotions because he wants to look like a man and not a *****, but he doesn't understand that a man cry's and owns up to his feeling, he'll get that eventually. and if you have a new man, sorry new guy for bringing up marc. he impacted my last years of being a teen and hannah girl if you got a man that's mad that you said something about marc HES NOT THE ONE✨ don't settle for less mamas😌 please tell me kodas still here, she's the best dog ever, and i can augue on that for days, she's helped you through much, nobody ever understand the bond you had with her. that was your little baby 🥺 and if she's still her, go make a trip to see her, she's getting really old now, she's your childhood dog, that's going to mess me you up so much when something happpens to old girl:/ we all love you, that guy that has your heart right now is marc, and tbh i'm lowkey scared cause it's been very hard with this long distance. it's really hard, and rn he isn't doing all that reassuring that needs to be done but i don't wanna bug him about it cause he's going through stuff as well💗 i love you girl❤️ you better have your life in order by now, and if your single, don't worry hannah never needed a man. or female👩‍🦯😳 but if you do, heyyyy i'm 17 year old hannah, i have so much mental problems💀 i'm sure you know, but hopefully by the time i'm with you i got everything together. love youuu maybe-_- if it's not too soon, alsoooo you bettter not be a bum😤 cause ion wanna have to hope into the future and bite you but pkayyy i'm done, imma call marc back now cause i told him imma call him later cause i'm emotional and he was like i love you baby imma turn my auto anwser on and the reason he ain't try to cheer me up is cause i'm on my period and he knows i don't like letting my emotions out. maybe my time i'll get better, but not right now i love you hannahhhhh❤️ don't let yourself down, also don't take life to seriously no one makes it out❤️