A letter from December 15th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you get this as a surprise and you have forgotten about it by then. But considering we have terrible memory this shouldn’t be a problem. Remember you can be anything you want, keep fighting. “You can’t get out of a hole until you put down the shovel and stop digging” I’m in the hole rn I can’t control my emotions, I’m a Wreck! In 5 years I hope you have found how to love yourself. I hope you have learned to forgive yourself. I hope you have found what makes you happy. Please just be the best version of yourself. You are loved, you are kind, and you are beautiful. You always sent that to Will to make sure he knew there’s someone that cares about him but you’re the one that needed to hear it. I’m weak right now and am currently crying because it’s weird to tell you to be your best self when I’m not . I hope you got out of your rut. Depression is a real thing and it’s okay to not be okay, you just need to rely on what makes you happy. Friends, family, and animals. Stop blaming yourself for bad things happening around you. You are awesome! Don’t let anyone even yourself tell you different! I love you.❤️ find happiness in the darkest times. Tell people how you feel. Also remember no kids ..... we would be a awful mother we are better as a aunt. Joel should be 5 now so I hope he isn’t too awful like most kids after 2 . Enjoy the little things in life. Be the reason someone smiles everyday. Be the reason someone wants to help others. Be the person everyone can count on. And finally be YOU! - love 18 year old you Olie