A letter from December 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, god i hope ur dating someone, or at least have, and I hope ur body count is at least 3 by now, please, if not get some help, or maybe u did get help and that's why its under 3, hope ur friends w benny still, and Caleb, hope Colby got that karma ya know ya know itd be wild if u was dating caleb, if u are, I hope u actually met him being knowing u, u haven't, if ur not dating him and ur dating someone else, I bet they're toxic and u haven't recognized it yet lmaoooo uh anyways, hope u didn't take the gap year ur thinking about rn and I hope u got into the U of M and went on that trip to universal w Irene, also I hope my spelling mistakes arent bad enough for u to not understand this and also I had no plan in writing this I just am pissed rn thanks uhhhhhhhhhhhhh if u been dating, like currently, his name better not be a red flag if it were a white dude. Like Andrew, Jack, Kyle, that kind of ****. I hope he ain't crusty, if he is tell him rn to wash his ******* pp, if he used 2 in 1 or MORE then force him to buy him new shampoo, and also shame him, I hope u have a clean room at least, hope u ain't struggle w depression or anxiety and you're doing the job you've wanted to do, I hope u know that there's always been people who care about you if you're depressed as **** rn. if u think past you would be disappointed in u, just know all I want in the future rn is to be mentally ok and happy, I wanna be chilling and be known for it. I wanna know we lived a life willing to tell even if it means never finding a country u feel like u belong in. Dont stay in the midwest, you will be miserable. We both know we grew up with severe anxiety, live past it and become more of a people person than dad and Bowen cuz you ******* love people. ******* strive to live insanely, I want our funeral to be attended by thousands, I want us to be remembered for centuries. Ok well, thousands is a stretch, I want our ***** to be felt by people around the country at least, even if it's only a dozen around the country, i want people who don't even know each other to meet each other at my funeral, i want people to fall in love there, to find a new chapter at the end of ours. you don't have to invent anything or be a saint, just live insanely, do what you think will make you be remembered. I hope you've figured out if you want to have a husband or wife or whatever, I hope you've figured out if you want children. Maybe when I'm 21 I'll realize my want to live a life no one wants to replicate but everyone wants to have was stupid and i want to live peacefully in the suburbs of a medium sized city. Or maybe something has happened and I'm already known and now i don't have a goal. So let me toss out thoughts for both ends. You want to live insanely still? be friends with everyone, make sure they know you love them, and more people you know the more people you'll end up knowing? might sound stupid cuz I'm 16 but its overall the idea, i wanna know people :). maybe we;re already famous, donate your ******* cash. Donate to everything which had held you back. To suiicide prevention, to helping kids receive therapy and meds and they cant afford it, to give people abortions when they cant pay for it, for the kids who struggle in school. Send love out to people. I wanna make people love the world, i want people to know that there's something to live for, there's people who want to look out for them. They may feel like a spec but their lives are still lives. If you wanna live quietly in a suburb, follow your parents. raise some kids yo, be the mom you wanted your mom to be. ******* love the kids you thought youd never want. I hope you named them apollo or Athena or both. there's so many lives i wanna live but we can only pick one so pick the one you love the most, not the one you ended up in. We're mentally good rn but I don't know If that's gonna stay forever so i hope you're alive to see this, i hope you have enough money to see this.