A letter from December 14th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Today you were happy. Yesterday you were happy. Tomorrow you will hopefully be happy. If you’re still with Connor when you get this I truly hope you are happy. I think right now you really are with him. He has his flaws....but who doesn’t? You fell in love with him because of his flaws and his good side. If you aren't with him that’s okay too! We will find our someone soon. If we haven’t already. We are stronger then we let ourselves believe. I hope you are step closer to your dreams too. Whatever they may turn out to be. Right now we are still figuring that out. Maybe you’ve moved out by now. Maybe you’re married by now or engaged. I can only imagine what our future is going to be. I know dad would be proud of who we are. The fact that I can say I was truly happy today is such a huge accomplishment since losing him. I won’t let you ever forget him. That’s one less thing to worry about. You just have to keep remembering everything happens for a reason and that it will lead you to an amazing place. Lily is laying on my lap right now sleeping. I hope she’s still here. She’s a pain but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’m watching boy meets world right now. The episode where Cory fails. I love this episode. I can’t believe how much I’m going to change in 5 years. I’ll be 26, fresh out of PT school hopefully or whatever you choose to pursue. it seems so far away and yet we will still be so young. You know what Connor loves doing? Joking about your height. I would never tell him but I love it. I love the way it makes him smile and laugh and I can’t help but to laugh either. We have so much fun together. Hopefully he’s gotten better at ice skating and rollerblading. He’s not the best..... This is turning out to be a sappy love poem rather then a update. There was no significant event today. It was a regular Sunday like any other but this is a day I never want to forget. It was the day I felt ok to be happy. To not overthink. To speak my mind.