A letter from December 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Happy Birthday Beautiful! Today is December 11, 2020. Today was the last day of your quarantine. You weren’t able to have thanksgiving with your family because you had been exposed to Covid-19. I am struggling mentally right now I am trying so so hard to be okay but sometimes it’s hard to mask it. If when you receive this letter you are a nurse. Give us a pat on the back because I am currently crying over how badly I want this. My heart is meant to help those in need. I want to be a change in someone’s life. If you have traveled, give us a pat on the back because I think about going somewhere new every day and learning more about myself. If you’ve gotten married, give yourself a pat on the back because I hope that means you’ve learn that you are worthy of love. And that you deserve someone who can help you make the best of this life, go tell them I love them. If you are a mother, give our baby a hug. I worry today because I have a fear that I’ll never be able to have a baby, for whatever reason that may be. But if God allows it, I can’t wait to meet them. If you own a home, go sit on your couch with a fuzzy blanket and look around and realize how far you’ve come. You deserve this. You deserve everything you’ve ever wanted. You try so hard every day to put a smile on the faces of those around you. You work so hard at jobs at sometimes don’t seem like they are worth the stress they put on you. This is where they have lead you. If you have grown with your faith in God. Give yourself a pat on the back because that is the best accomplishment on this list. You are worthy of Gods love and you are created in his eyes. You are amazing. As hard as it was to write this letter, I need you to love us because I’m having a hard time loving us but I know if I could see you with these accomplishments I would be so proud. I want to make it to you. 5 years. I need to make it 5 years. Love Me, You, Us.