A letter from December 11th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi! How are you? I hope you are well :) today is December 10, 2020. Honestly i'm excited for you to receive this letter. Where do I start? Hmmmm well did you go to New York? If not where are you and why :( I got a therapist today and I hope you are still going to therapy! well if needed for healing. Um this is not something I wanted to ask about but it felt needed. Devin? does it still hurt or did it get easier You loved her a lot and you miss or missed her. Right now it hurts and its also weird. Does it become normal again the being by yourself. Don't forget the lesson learned in that friendship. Its okay to outgrow people and its okay to let go not everyone is your forever. One day you'll meet someone I know you will. Someone who will treat you like you've have always wanted to be treated and wont judge you wont make you feel uncomfortable, and someone who will make you feel safe. Also do you still have your irrational fear of men cause right now you do kinda think you may need to work that out before you get a boyfriend T-T Its a big issue literally the only boys you talk to are Mario and francisco. Also did you give the letter to Mario? He deserves to know if you read this 5 years from now and you haven't told you Mario how you feel or felt i will literally throw myself off of a bridge. He may have completely demolished your heart but thats okay . Although in all honesty i just want you happy and with the people who make you the happiest i want you to have healed from all the hurt and trauma. Whatever you're doing whoever you are with just be happy. if you aren't then leave don't put yourself through that again. I hope you are still friends with Delanie, Ileana, Sophia, And trinity. Don't worry about me I know you got this i believe in you and i always will also stop being lazy and do whatever you are procrastinating bc i know you are anyways make sure you take your birth control no babies 2020 or ever do you want to permanently damage your citrous or rip all the way to your booty no exactly so don't get pregnant i swear to gosh- p.s i guess ill see you in 5 years huh i wish you the best xoxo, Amanda (17 years old and wanting to die because why did my english teacher make me read othello i wanted to k word myself)