A letter from December 10th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Cheska Hi! its me ur younger self,,,,,ur younger naive self,,,,but first and foremost r u okay? if not,,,plz talk to ur friends or like rewatch anime oohhh i know SAIKI K ur first love,,,,, r u still watching anime?,,,,how about kpop?,,,,,still hanging up there?,,,,,,,also u better thank jr,,,,,,u wouldnt be there if werent 4 him,,,,,do u self harm like u did before?,,,,,,if yes u beter stop,,,,,i know it hurs but u can do it,,,,,sumuko panget diba ayaw mo nun,,,,,also always eat do not skip meals u will get thin,,,,,and if it hurts,,,,, always remember that ur friends will cry bc of u,,,,even though u thought that u don have a purpose well,,,,, U DO!,,,,,, ur purpose is to be the best version of urself,,,,, if u r feeling down listen to these: magic shop, jamais vu, on track by skz, life goes on, hello-chen, ex by skz, eight by iu, shine by pentagon, 2!3! by bts, spring day, goblin by sulli, sweet night, smile flower, daisy, stay with me- punch, it was love, i need u, mikrokosmos, like this im crying while writing this because of the fact that people only loved me bc of my knowledge and knowledge only. they dont love for who i am. and what i mean by that is papa being greedy and being disappointed even though i did my best-est. HSUGSYUSUYGISUHO do u still watch chan's room?,,,,, if u get sad plz watch it it makes u feel better,,,,i sometimes call him my therapist GHUIJHGFTYGUHIJ its true doe,,,, anyways,,, do u still stan skz? tell me about their new songs,concept wait who is ur bias?i think ur still wrecked lolololol well ill write again soon brb gotta cram lol