A letter from December 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Wow 5 years. I am so proud of you. Wherever you are, whatever you are doing, I cannot wait to be you. Honestly i dont think you even check your hotmail anymore lol, i hope so. I really want you to see this and admire yourself. I hope by now you stopped second guessing every decision you're making and became more self confident. If you're still friends with the same group: i hope you are free enough to be your true self around them. I hope you're more comfortable with being yourself. I know you're still exploring (of course). It's fiiine. Oh and ure probably like 27 turning 28 now, maybe being pressured to be in love or whatever. Just a reminder that men aint ****. Your mother and aunt and cousin blabla cannot define your happiness or your future. Do YOU. I hope you've been traveling around. I really want to do that. If not, its cool we'll still do it some time in the future. If you did find someone you like enough (highly doubt it), i hope he makes you really happy and you travel around together. (For the love of god do not settle.) If you're broken up, well, **** him. Dont act so tough as always, let it sink in. Embrace your feelings for once (lol). And then, move on. There a lot of other options, remember? If you're still enjoying that single life, well girl, go onnnn. Be your own man. Job-wise, im still doing that internship hoping it will lead somewhere. By now you probably got a gig at some other place. Whatever it is, i hope its outside this ******* country. Lastly, stop comparing your life with others. I know you are. You're probably doing it right now STOP! You will never feel happiness that way. I feel like im putting so much pressure on myself so if i did make you feel this way: im sorry im just excited lol. I have no expectations. I believe in you, stop hating yourself. Go talk to your mother and give her big fat hug (or call if ure in different places). Appreciate her. Spoil her. I know i said "lastly" but im still rambling so whatever. "People from your past", truly hope u didnt reconnect with him. Honestly give up lol, i beg yoooouuu. You never loved him. Alright good night i need to sleep. Oh i hope your sleeping habits improved ffs.