A letter from December 2nd, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey its you... well you 5 years ago? Whats changed? Right now the world is pretty **** with covid you just got rejected from Aberdeen and dundee for medicine but you found a cool masters you might apply for as a back up plan! Medicine is still the goal! Have you made it? Are you enjoying it? Please god tell me you lost the weight? Are you happy? Please tell me the BDD and anxiety amd depression is gone ! Did therapy happen and help? Did you get medicated what have you accomplished who have you let get to know you. Please tell me you've finally felt love that you've stopped letting men abuse your body because you feel unworthy man i hate that please tell me everything different ? So let me tell you how you feel right now... Sad Numb Lonley Depressed Angry Hurt Those are the main ones I suppose alot to do with uni rejection and your internalised hatred you are stuck at home and every day is worse than the last you feel like mum and dad are putting you down deliberately it really ******* sucks man it makes you want to die. But you have to power through please dont give up! Remember the dream surgeon in europe! You started learning Italian and french this year how did that go? Are you fluent ? How did the astronomy course end up going? Theres so many questions I have and so much I want to tell you I hope this letter finds you well and I hope you look back with a much more positive outlook on life. Have you been dating anyone or maybe even something more serious ? I'm so curious as to what the future holds for us!