A letter from December 1st, 2020

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well and everything is ok, by the time you receive this message you’ll be 26 it’s crazy, I’m only 21 right now. 2020 has been a crazy year for me where I first started the new year with a black eye by a man because my friend at the time was a mouthy drunken mess and somehow he thought it would be ok to punch me and send me off to a&e which my mum blamed me for and wasn’t happy. Wasn’t my fault, I cut off so many toxic relationships and redeveloped my boundaries as I’ve learnt the best people in life always attract those good who feel validated and good within themselves; basically I stopped holding onto things that were clearly not serving me or good for me and my mental well-being. I lived away from home for about 3 weeks because time was hard at home living with an abusive, emotionally manipulative ‘mother’ who is clearly unwell and not mentally stable, it’s hard to maintain such a on and off bipolar relationship with someone who always constantly says ‘I wish I had done an abortion my life is completely damaged’ so yeah that was a strong herdal to overcome by but we got there, I just learnt how to not absorb other negative energy and rightfully so send it back to the owner, and to accept that my mum simply isn’t well and it’s a reflection of herself inside, not me as a person. I hope by now you manifested most things i planned at the end of 2021, continuing to remain confident, emotionally intelligent, physically fit and athletic, eating healthy and clean, exercising, a good skincare regimen, taking care of yourself whether I have met my boyfriend or not, always fill your cup first and give to others around you the overflow :) Anyways I hope I am an entrepreneur of some sort and I have a few multiple streams of income! We always hated working for others doing 9-5 jobs that made us depressed. I hope you have all the designer in the world and without a doubt I know I look facially amazing still, it’s amazing not to age and just get better and better looking isn’t it lol that’s one thing I know for certain. I know I’ve travelled the world a few bit within the last 5 years and it was amazing, being financially free and having my freedom is such a blessing and all the smart work and effort paid off massively. Finding my soulmate and my perfect pea in a pod partner is such a relief (especially with how I felt about a certain guy J for so long and how toxic that situation was LOL I’ve only just gotten over it and wished him the best in my heart) but I can’t believe how in love I am it’s beautiful and perfect I already know. The stability financially and romantically in my life was something I had to learn as a lesson in my younger life which is another thing I learnt in 2020, I’m hopeful we managed to get it right definitely. Anyways keep manifesting, there’s so much to live for, so many things to do as to give back to people, help those in need, try new things, learn, meditate, sustaining healthy relationships and also with yourself. Stay safe and always be happy, take care of yourself and regardless of where I am at in life, I’m extremely proud of how far you have gotten (lol I’m 21 speaking like I’m on my ***** bed or something having my final words? Looool) but seriously I’m extremely proud of what I have overcomed in life and how I managed to beat depression, anxiety, low self esteem, live in a toxic abusive environment, beat bad boundaries, and hey the list goes on and on. I love you Chloe you powerful, beautiful woman.