A letter from November 26th, 2020

To Older wenshi (who hopefully has changed her name to something else lol) I- I don't know. I don't really know what to say? I hope you're doing better now, now that you're 20 years old. (I hope you did get to try vodka) Pa just told me today that he and Ma are splitting up. Tbh I'm not as upset or angry or sad as I would've expected myself to be. But nor am I as happy or optimistic as I expected myself to be. I guess I always knew that this day would come, though I didn't expect it to come so soon. I don't know how people deal with their parents' divorce, I never really had close friends who had to deal with that ****, and my social circle is really small so I don't even have a lot of friends to begin with. Though I'm surprisingly calm, at least calmer than I expected myself to be. I don't know what the future holds for me. It's very likely that there is gonna be a court case and a custody/asset battle. One thing I do know for sure is that I wanna stay with Pa. I lived 15, close to 16, years of my life under Ma's emotional abuse, there's no way I wanna continue with that, especially when there's a door open for me to get out of that ********. I'm worried about sis though. She's gonna have to live in the dorms for the next 3 years cuz they are gonna sell this apartment. And after she's done with uni, where is she gonna live? I'm probably gonna have to move out soon. I don't know when, but I do know that I will be moving out. There's no way this house will be kept after the divorce is finalised. I just moved in here seven months ago, and I'm gonna have to move again. I've gotten pretty used to the convenience of life here in Paya Lebar, where I can go wherever I want with the MRT interchange and malls all around me. I'm not good with change, and this change is gonna suck even more. 2020 was a ****, **** year I guess. I hope that I'll be okay. Younger wenshi.