A letter from November 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi self 🙂 it's 2:57 am and your still awake together with Matthew 😅 oo haha dakilang puyaters ang anak mo 🙄😂 your are being impatient lately due to lack of sleep and stress and nobody wants to believe that ur suffering from ppd 🥺 idk . I just feel so down , gustong bumagsak ng katawan ko pero iniisip ko araw araw gigising ako andyan Yung anak at Asawa ko na nakadipende sakin . Yah it's my responsibility it's just that nakakapagod lang . Ang hirap matulog hindi ako makatulog , overthinking , Im so stress na napaka walang kwenta ko na wala man lang ako maiambag financial , iniisip ko tama ba pagpapalaki ko sa anak ko ? Tama ba ginagawa ko ? Masama ba akong ina kase minsan apapalo kusya ?dahil may times na wala akong oras sa kanya ? Idk . 5 years from now hopefully mas better nako ..