Happy Birthday Mehgan!

Dear FutureMe, Hey Mehgan, it should be your 19th birthday right about now. The same age Alexander became King of Macedonia. Kinda feel diminished below what he was able to do, huh. I know you still love him and are fascinated by him, because it started when you were just 15! You knew more than any 15 year old should about him and his life. Anyways, I hope you've lost those 20 pounds and feel better about yourself. I know how important that was to you. Did you and Rachel finally become friends? I hope so, she was a very nice person and loved horses just like you. Wow, hard to believe you're 19. I know there were some days you'd never think you'd make it past the next hour, let alone to 19 years. Remember when you overdosed on Lorazepam when your mom was yelling at you? Took some heavy consequences there. Do you remember how you cut yourself those few times? Yeah you do. You still have the scars to show it. I'm quite sure you don't beat yourself up about Anna anymore and what happened during the summer. She was weird anyways. I hope you've been able to find peace with yourself, even though it's never been peaceful around you. Within I hope those wounds have healed and the scars have grown new skin over them. I do love you, even though I've never said it. It may sound conceited as you're reading this, seeing as at the time you were 16, but throughout the years you hated yourself. So I thought it was in order to make some things known. And you know, whether you believe it now or not, you're a pretty cool person. Keep being Mehgan, and remember what Aristotle said. "Be what you wish to seem." I hope you've accomplished that...