A letter from November 25th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hey you. I hope you are still here . I know the thoughts in your head as you are writing this you wish you could just get the courage to end it. You can't bare to put them through the pain of loosing you for good and that is the only thing keeping you going. I hope you have found your friends for life as at the moment of writing this you feel like the "friends" in your life aren't true friends and you only hear from them when it benefits them. You will never forget that time you got the operation on both your feet and you where bed bound for months and not one friend visited I know it still hurts you as you went through a lonely dark time . I hope you are no longer depressed and anxious and you feel genuinely happy with life in the present. I know you are currently so low and unhappy with your job situation working in ICU through the covid19 pandemic. It's a stressful time and you are struggling with the full PPE. I hope since 5 years have past covid is managed and life is back to normal again and no masks are needed everywhere you go. I hope you have finally moved into your own home and its everything you ever wanted and wished for. I hope you have found true love and you are getting treated how you deserve to be treated. I hope you have got that career that you have wished for and your happy with your situation and you actually enjoy going to work and you fit in like a glove. I'm confident you will make it to read this in five years time. Keep doing you x