A letter from November 17th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's now November- **** time flies- and you're in Lockdown 2.0 at home, where you are living in the back room where you cleaned in October. You moved the bed a couple days ago and the dresser which fit perfectly by the window:) Did you ever move the bed again like you planned. i don't think it will fit in the closet area but hey maybe you'll prove me wrong... A lot has changed in your life in the past few months: you have cried a lot. thought the worst and that it won't get better and you don't know if you want it better because thats what your used to and comfortable with. you really want to try and get somewhere on youtube and Instagram, heck maybe earn money and turn it into a hobby and a living. You want to knit and crochet, make little clay earrings and pins and jewelry, learn languages, instruments, and knowledge in different fields. you also want to make drawings you are proud of, and basically you plan to clean the whole house and because famous in ******* one day haha.. you are very ambitious love. And you can do it all too... nothing is in your way that you can't overcome. even if you don't do all of these things you will still be able to and see how far you've come or at least the enviorments to do them like you have the money to buy etc or skills... Right now your starting from the beginning again. From zero. Starting fresh. And for most people, they might get freaked out by that, but i think this kind of thing drives you. You listened to this Podcast by Revolution Ramblings- one that was suggested to you by damon dominique, and also could be one of the many driving forces in your life besides other youtube videos, in your mental state/spiritual level- in which according to DD said, " Why are people so afraid of change? Change is amazing. Change is the way. Not changing or seeing other possibilities for your life ( aka feeling stuck or feeling complacent) is like being on the same roller coaster in an award-winning amusement park, and never going to experience the other coasters that could bring you just as much joy and fun, if not more. You're stuck on the same coaster because you're afraid you might not like it, but how could you not? love you and God does too.... beckl:)