HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!!!

heyyy..... HAPPY 18TH YRS OLD!!! ohhhh god!! i cant believe ur reading this on ur 18th birthday so ima introduce myself im YOU as in YOU, ME u wrote this letter when u were 12 yrs old remember??? hmmmm i wonder what happened to u?? did u get ur dream highschool life, "teenager life" like from the movies where u stand up to bullies and dont give a ****. haha im actually gonna grow up as im thinking it by now!! i kinda dont want to grow up cuz i like being a kid lmao. GOD!! LOOK AT U!! u've grown so much i mean i cant see u cuz im from the past but u can see me clearly. i know 2020's boring and ****** up cuz u miss ur parents since u were 8 and hoping to see them in ur dreams and..... btw stop about that, i know u miss them cuz its ur 18th birthday and the 10th times u cry on ur birthdays hoping they would atleast haunt u just to know they're always by ur side everyday. well know that they'll always be by ur side everyday. remember that ur not alone okay? people care about u so get ur $#! t together im gonna be 8th grade next year dont remind me of embarassing things ive done, did i? ughhhhh.... ur stressed of school arent u? of course u are, u always hated math. so what course u gonna get? a job? dont be a dental doctor plss im forcing myself to study and try to survive school rn from the past not for a dental teeth doctor!...... i know school is hard its hardddd af!... ur reading this rn so i know u survived!! u've come all the way to here rn to ur 18th birthday everythings different from now on. did u even finish school!!?! i swear if u didnt ur past self will be mad at u, u know that! i know school is hard dont even think about giving up if that even crossed ur mind plss dont. okay im sorry if im hard at u hehe ur past self is just hyped about u growing up and overthinking too much ohh god i need to stop lmao dont get too stressed about school okay? ok im probably understimating school life in the future is it hard? of course it is. its hard i know dont keep pushing urself study smarter not harder. im excited for u!! ur growing up u've experienced bad things too but dont think about it as a thing to bring urself down. think about it as a life lesson, or a idk.... hmm or just think that u've experienced worse and let it be a motivation i hope u do things that u love, u really love! i believe in u. everythings gonna be different now. u already know that i dont need to say things to you now cuz i know u can do it i believe in u u were always brave keep holding on to that im pretty matured am i? coming from a 12 yr old's words talking about life and job HAHAHAHA stop with all that future talk what i really wanna say is HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY today is huge!! ur about to step in to greater things in life. enjoy urself be happy. plss take care of urself always remember ur past self will be proud of u HAVE FUN now im excited for u enjoy with ur friends woooooohoooo ur not alone okay. hmmmm i forgot about ur friends do u have friends? lmao remember ur writing this when u were 12 and u were always lonely that time. are ur friends reading this? hey! this is me younger in words best friends forever okay!